Well I am getting better about this writing but I fear that  I am in no way prepared for NaNoWriMo. I did this in 2008 and didn't finish but this has always been a dream of mine.  I really do love to write right up and about to the time where I am committed to doing it. Perhaps I have a fear of commitment. I do know that I am the only one that can overcome my issues and this is going to be a very serious attempt at doing what I profess to love doing. 
    The weather is getting cool here finally. That always makes me want to build a fire and start writing while drinking coffee and eating biscotti. This is my favorite time of year and I really spend 9 months of the year waiting for the 12 weeks of cool weather that we sometimes get. Living in Texas is not really ideal for someone that loves cold weather. I was born in Alaska and I love the cold. With that in mind I was forced to grow up in central Texas and Arizona. I have spent the majority of my life longing to live somewhere that has more than two seasons. I keep getting pulled back and forth between the two but if given a choice I would be living in the pacific northwest. I have always thought I belonged in Alaska. I keep hearing you can't go back home but I think I could do nicely in a little cabin in Alaska beside a stream. Let me be snowed in for three months at a time, I love to garden and I am fairly certain if I had internet I would be able to live off canned foods and just write in front of the fireplace all winter. Yes that would be my heaven. I can imagine spending leisurely days fishing to catch dinner or hunting and smoking and curing the meat to be saved for the winter. My husband on the other hand think that anything below 60 is really too cold for him so this does present a few issues. Well not really, this is where he works so I will die longing for the land I come from.
   If I know anything I know that life certainly has not given me what I thought it was going to. Isn't that always the case. I had visions of being a famous singer but I was not given a singers voice, so I thought maybe acting and lord knows I am dramatic enough but alas I never followed that path. It seemed to be my mission in life to raise kids, both helping with my siblings and then having my own child when I was still but a child. I loved being a Mother despite learning as I went. I guess we all do to a degree.  I know I am a much better Mother now than I ever could have been back then. Perhaps there is something to people needing to be licensed to have kids. I would not have passed a class then but I feel like now I could do a more than decent job of parenting.
     I will attempt to be more frequent about writing, we were in a car accident this weekend and it really has derailed me a bit. It's hard to sit comfortably and write anywhere that I try to sit. I suspect this will pass soon enough. It will have to FALL IS HERE! Did I mention that I LOVE this time of year?!?!?!?!